Will I ever learn?

As I said yesterday I am mentoring a new hire at work this week and trying to focus on doing a good job, but I am also filled with anxiety about whether I will get a promotion I am in contention for. On top of all that my friend Marisa was at the Fetish Flea this weekend in Boston w/her boyfriend JR and ran into my ex-friend Sarah. Marisa and JR knew the circumstances of the end of Sarah's and my friendship and the way that Sarah wounded me and they had a blast letting Sarah know that I have found great joy and happiness as well as my fairy tale prince...Sarah a normally intelligent person was apparently dumbfounded. I guess happiness is the best revenge....If I go to the next Flea I hope Sarah faints when she sees the ring...It ALMOST would have been worth the trip to Boston. I do NOT miss Sarah's negativity and constant kvetching and am glad I wasn't there because who needs to be around that kind of negativity even for a moment...I am glad that Marisa and JR let her know how well things have turned out for me. All of this gives me pause to focus on the friendships I have gained and lost over the years. Depression is a terrible thing and I admit I have behaved badly in some very important situations and the end of my friendship w/Sarah was NOT the ONLY casualty of the troubles I went through in 2000. I deeply regret the end of my friendship with Matt F. and I can only hope that I will be forgiven one day but I ruined an evening that belonged to he and his fiance by my own clingy,needy behavior at the time. I can't change the past but I certainly have learned with the help of a great therapist that it's not always all about me and that I do not the undivided attention of the people in my life at all times. I have also learned that I don't like liars...and have dismissed some people who failed to be truthful w/me,themselves or both. All of this is important as I plan to get married because AH and I want to share OUR day with the people who matter most. I am discovering that those people are in some ways the ones I least expected to still be here and some of them have been w/me through thick and thin and deserve more than "Thank You". Little by little I am learning that is not how many friends one has but the quality of the friendships...